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  Alexander Baron in Eighth Army uniform, 1943

  There’s No Home

  A NOVEL

  ALEXANDER BARON

  AFTERWORD BY

  John L. Williams

  Contents

  Title Page

  There’s No Home

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Chapter Twenty-One

  Chapter Twenty-Two

  Afterword by John L. Williams

  Copyright

  There’s No Home

  There’s No Home

  Then fare weel ye banks o’ Sicily,

  Fare ye weel ye valley an’ shaw.

  There’s nae Jock will mourn the kyles o’ ye.

  Puir bliddy bastards are weary.

  And fare weel ye banks o’ Sicily,

  Fare ye weel ye valley an’ shaw.

  There’s nae hame can smo’er the wiles o’ ye.

  Puir bliddy bastards are weary.

  from The Highland Division’s Farewell to Sicily

  by Hamish Henderson

  Chapter One

  THIS is not a story of war but of one of those brief interludes in war when the almost-forgotten rhythms of normal living are permitted to emerge again; and when it seeps back into the consciousness of human beings – painfully, sometimes heartbreakingly – that they are, after all, human.

  Which war? It might have been any war; the war we knew, the war our fathers knew; or it might be a glimpse, foreseen, of tomorrow’s war. It makes little difference.

  But since most people like to know when a thing happened, and where, let it be recorded that this story takes place on the island of Sicily, in the town of Catania, and that it begins on the fifth day of August in the year 1943.

  All the morning the British soldiers had been streaming into the town. They came clattering in through the Garibaldi Gate, down the steep and narrow Via Garibaldi, always in straggling single file. Their boots and gaiters were white with dust. Their dark denim trousers were filthy, shapeless and torn. Their khaki drill jackets showed black patches of sweat and their faces, scarlet or glistening brown with the heat, were ugly with stubble and sores. They were bowed and weary beneath their packs and weapons. The rays of the sun fell upon them like hammer blows from above and bounced back at them from walls and pavements in dry gusts of furnace-like heat. The saving shadow had been banished; every corner of creation was flooded with a blinding white glare that hurt their eyes and made their heads ache; so that it was only occasionally, and with little interest, that men glanced about them, at the town which they had fought so long and suffered so bitterly to capture. The obsession of battle – that strange sense of trance in which all the superfluous faculties and emotions are anaesthetized – was still upon them. At the moment, only their soldier’s senses functioned, keeping their tortured bodies in motion, guiding them over the hillocks of rubble which spilled across the streets, searching the ground before their feet for mines, watching roofs and windows for ambush, recording through their ears the sharp, distant sounds of battle from the foothills north of the town which told them that the German rearguards were still in action, falling reluctantly back along the coast towards Messina.

  At the foot of the Via Garibaldi they struck left along what appeared to be the town’s main thoroughfare, a broad street in which fine buildings, shops and tree-lined squares alternated with enormous mounds of ruin. High above the street hung the sun, a splash of unbearable incandescence that filled half the sky. At the street’s end, appearing deceptively near, rose the blue immensity of Etna, mocking them with its cool tranquillity, as it had done throughout the days of slaughter they had endured on the parched plains which now lay behind them peopled only by the dead. All the morning they came; armoured cars, moving without haste along the street as if their crews were sightseeing, gathering speed noisily as they approached the far side of the town; tanks, lorries, water-trucks, motor cycles; and the bobbing files of infantry, with their indefatigable, spring-heeled walk. The sun rose ever higher above their heads. The last breaths of wind died, murdered. The air became so charged with heat that it seemed that it must ignite and shrivel them all in a great flash. The daylight disintegrated before the men’s eyes, its radiance shimmering with curtains of darkness and coloured fire, so that the white walls and the bleached pavements seemed to waver.

  A company of infantry came trudging round the corner into the main street. Their commander moved in front of them, as dirty and anonymously attired as any of his men, yet unmistakably distinguishable even from a distance by his height, his splendid bearing and the vigilance with which he looked about him. Even from a distance this seemed to be a man who was recording everything, measuring everything; even the set of his shoulders hinted that the first whine of a bullet would find him prepared; the length and firmness of his stride spoke of determination. It is always inspiring to see a man who is born to lead; there was a fascination about him that brought life back even into the dead eyes of the civilians who had crawled from their shelters to stand abjectly on the far pavement, and which led on the men behind him as surely as if he had them all on a rope.

  A motorcycle roared past his men and skidded to a spectacular stop across his path. He raised his hand and the column came to an untidy halt. He conferred for a few moments with the motorcyclist, pushing his steel helmet back as he spoke to free a mass of hair which was of the same red-gold colour as his thick moustache. He spoke a few words to the subordinates who had hurried to his side.

  The men began to move again, like sleepwalkers, as if it were difficult for them to get into motion once they had stopped. They shambled on for fifty yards until they came to a large and pleasant square. Here they turned off from the main street and moved along the three walls of the buildings that lined one side of the square. Commands were spoken, without any particular vigour or emphasis, and the men broke ranks. They threw their packs down and stood their weapons noisily against the wall. There was the clank of falling equipment and the pop of water-bottle corks. Voices were raised; the rhythm of the march was broken. They were free men, men at once aware of their exhaustion; they sat on the pavement, backs against the wall, legs outstretched, faces averted from the sun and covered by caps or handkerchiefs. They showed no curiosity about their surroundings or the reasons for the halt. They were inert. Only their commander, standing on the kerb and watching the rest of the army stream by, preserved in his stance a soldier’s tension and vitality. With his legs apart he threw his head beck and stretched his arms upwards, wearily yet tirelessly, as if to display by this gesture his defiance of the sun; a human being strong and undefeated.

  §§§§

  There were only about sixty of them. Less than four weeks before, when they had waded ashore from their landing-craft, there had been twice as many.

  The first to stir was a stocky youngster who, even at this time, looked a little neater than his comrades. Already he had tucked his jacket inside the waistband of his trousers like a shirt and he had wiped some of the dust from his boots with a piece of paper; quite irrational, this last act, for his face was still plastered with sweat and white dust. The eyes that gazed out of this pallid mask were grey and steady, with that combi
nation of keenness and innocence that characterizes a whole breed of peerers into the innards of cars and radio sets. His name was Geoffrey Jobling. He climbed stiffly to his feet and set off to explore his surroundings.

  The man next to him, who watched him fondly as he went, bore a close resemblance to him. They were both hewn in the same shape, they both had the same brush of upright black hair that contrasted oddly with the same grey eyes and gave to both their countenances an air of comic wryness. The man who remained seated, however, looked older; his build was heavier. He appeared, as he sat up to look after the other, more deliberate in his movements; and his eyes were lit with a maturer intelligence. Harry Jobling was thirty years old, his brother’s senior by seven years.

  Geoffrey came back. ‘That big building’s the University,’ he explained, ‘Catania University. Grand-looking place, isn’t it? They call this street the Via Etnea. It’s the main street.’

  ‘I don’t want to know,’ grunted Harry. ‘Tell me where I can find a glass of nice, cold beer an’ I’ll sit up and take notice.’ But there was a note of affection beneath his raillery, for he was proud of his young brother. Wherever they went Geoff was off like a terrier – he had always been like that – to look for information. He would tell his comrades proudly that a church they were passing (they had probably not even turned their heads to look at it) was built in the fourteenth century, or that a heap of ruins in their path (just like the leavings of a yesterday’s battle) had once been a Greek temple, or that Mount Etna was 10,712 feet high, or that sixty per cent of Italy’s exports came from Sicily. He would talk in a devout voice of the armies that had passed this way, Greeks, Romans, Normans, Saracens, the liberating legions of Garibaldi; and the other soldiers would listen respectfully, for although they were not in the least interested in the facts, they revered knowledge for its own sake and they would say (how proud it made his brother Harry to hear them!), ‘Aye, there’s no mistake, he’s an educated boy is young Geoff.’

  ‘Don’t be running about so much,’ said Harry. ‘Sit down and rest. We’ve been through a bit these last few weeks. Better take it easy while you can.’

  ‘What? With old Jerry on the run?’ Five minutes rest had recharged Geoff with all the restlessness of youth. ‘We’ll be up on our feet in a minute and after him.’ Then there would be more towns, more enchantments, more villages perched on crags, more white roads winding magically up into the hills; more grandeurs and bright colours than a boy brought up in the Kent coalfield had ever seen. He sighed happily. ‘Oh, this is something to write home about, all right!’ The phrase had a literal significance for him. His letters home were long and detailed accounts of a wonderful tour of strange lands. Harry’s letters to ‘the old lady’ were briefer and more painfully composed, and consisted mainly of assurances about his younger brother’s well-being. It had always been his main preoccupation in life to help and protect ‘the kid’, not only because of the fierce if undemonstrative love that he bore for Geoff, but because as he expressed it in his thoughts – ‘it would kill the old lady’ if any harm came to her last-born. Ever since their father and their elder brother had been killed in a pit accident Harry had watched over Geoff, at first in the pit and later in the Army. Throughout the battle from which they had just emerged he had lived under a double strain. They had slogged up across the plain, fought their way across the bloody Simeto River, driven a fanatical enemy from farmhouse to farmhouse, from ditch to ditch; and at every step, every time a man fell, every time a shell exploded, Harry had felt a fresh anguish at his brother’s danger. Yet there was nothing of all this, nothing of the heat, the stinking polluted water, the sweat and dust, the flies and scorpions, the sores and dysentery and malaria, in their letters home. ‘Dear Mam,’ wrote Geoff, ‘today we saw in the distance a castle on a rock. It looked just like the Gibbs’ Dentifrice advertisements. It is called Bronte, and Lord Nelson lived there once.’ ‘Dear Mam,’ wrote Harry, ‘the kid is all right. I made him take the Liver Salts you sent.’ Just now Harry was feeling tired; more tired, more drained of energy than any of the other men; the lifting of his private burden had left him limp with relief and exhaustion.

  ‘It’s all right for you,’ moaned a little man who sprawled near them. ‘You got nothink to worry about. I got responsibilities. Five kids I got. I shouldn’t oughta been ’ere at all.’

  ‘You still singing the same old song?’ Geoff laughed. ‘It’s time you started to make the best of it. How long you been in?’

  ‘Ten months. Ten months too bloody long, I’ll tell yer. It’s all a mistake, that’s what it is.’ The little man looked as if he were about to cry. ‘They should never of took me. When I went up for me medical the old doctor bust out laughing. “Don’t you worry,” he says, “they’ll never make a soldier out of you.”’

  ‘Nor they won’t,’ interrupted Harry, ‘not in a lifetime.’

  The little man – his name was Ling – repeated his plaint. He uttered it as frequently as the chirp of a bird, and with the same shrillness; perhaps that was why his comrades called him Sparrow. ‘It’s all right for you. They should never of took me.’

  ‘I know,’ said Geoff, ‘you got five kids. Well, you’re here now. Fifteen hundred miles from home. Why don’t you pipe down? You only make it bad for yourself moaning.’

  Harry looked up. ‘Don’t be silly. It’s what keeps him going. Eh, Sparrer?’

  Sparrow’s bald head was corrugated with wrinkles of resentment. He shrugged his puny shoulders. His grievance was, in fact, what kept him going; his grumbling was the audible manifestation of the incomprehension, the bewilderment which protected him from reality. The other men found it hard to understand how he had survived what they had just been through. He had not fought his way through the battle but had wandered through it in a wide-eyed daze like a frightened child. Yet, of them all, he was the only one now who was unmarked by experience. Most of the company still sat slumped in an utter weariness that was of the soul, with deep grooves of horror in their countenances. Sparrow’s face was puffy and tired. His fatigue was the restless, fretful weariness of a frightened urchin. There was nothing in his expression but the resentment and the surprised innocence that had been there since he joined the battalion.

  ‘What about our grub?’ he grumbled. ‘Three meals a day, that’s what we’re entitled to. I know the ration scale. I know my rights. We ’aven’t sat down to a proper meal for weeks.’

  ‘You don’t say!’

  They looked up. Sergeant Craddock was standing over them. ‘Sparrer,’ he said, ‘you’re a lucky man. You got no imagination. No imagination at all. I wish I was you. We’re all dying of fright in a ditch with a machine gun traversing over our heads, an’ you’re worrying about when the next pay parade’s going to be. We’re walking through a minefield, poor buggers blowing up all round us, and you start grumbling because you got blisters on your feet. We’re surrounded at night, and there you are telling the world that a man’s entitled to his eight hours’ sleep. Tell you what I’ll do. Next time we’re up the bloody line and Jerry’s putting down a mortar stonk on us, I’ll set you up a table and chair, with a nice dean cloth and some flowers, and I’ll get old Monty to come and serve your dinner up to you in person.’

  ‘Garn,’ muttered Sparrow, ‘yer barmy.’ He settled sulkily back against the wall.

  ‘Well,’ – Sergeant Craddock addressed the platoon at large – ‘do you like the look of this place?’

  The riflemen stirred. Some of them growled comments. ‘Because you’d better get used to it,’ Sergeant Craddock added, ‘Captain Rumbold just told me. We’re staying here.’

  §§§§

  The traffic no longer streamed by in a grim, continuous pageant. The broad street was quiet, sodden with the white, narcotic sunshine. There were more civilians abroad, prowling warily about like famished cats, gathering sometimes in shrilly disputative groups. In the distance could be heard a clamour of women’s voices and people came hurrying past laden with a
rmfuls of clothing or brightly coloured bolts of silk that contrasted with their ragged clothes; they were looters, hastening away from the deserted shops into which a mob of lean and famished slum-dwellers had broken. Occasionally a column of foot soldiers would come plodding into the town, the men bowed, white with dust; or a convoy of lorries would appear and vanish with a rush and rattle; but now they were not all going in the same direction. They were emerging from, or turning into side streets. Military policemen were whitewashing arrows and symbols on walls. Hour by hour the captured town was being turned into a base, and its garrison was arriving in the wake of the pursuit.

  The company formed up in the square. The men did not feel refreshed after their rest; they were stiff and tired. Even to move was a victory of the will. They were aware now that they were filthy, and their dirt, their sores, their sweat-sodden clothing became an agony to them. The battalion, Captain Rumbold told them, was going to have a rest. It had been left behind to perform garrison duties. The various rifle companies were going to billets in different parts of the town. Soon they would be taken to theirs.

  Captain Rumbold surveyed his exhausted men. ‘Get those backs up, lads, and put some snap into it. These Dagoes are getting their first look at British soldiers. They’re a scruffy lot. Show ’em something that’ll shake ’em. It won’t be long now. You’ll soon have your boots off.’

  The men straightened their backs as he looked up and down the ranks. Some cursed him under their breaths. Some grinned at each other and muttered, ‘He’s a mad sod!’ – the highest term of praise they would accord to any man – or, equally approving, ‘Silly old bastard!’ When they moved off, however, their apathy returned. They trudged wearily after the guide, out of step, so that their steel-shod boots made a tremendous din on the cobbles, setting up echoes that rebounded from wall to wall of the narrow streets through which they were now passing. The column – they had formed up in threes – twisted through a maze of filthy turnings. The men lost all sense of time and direction and began once more to march automatically, as if they had given up hope of ever reaching a destination.